Treacherous

(…)

This slope is treacherous,
This path is reckless,
This slope is treacherous,
And I, I, I, like it

I can’t decide if it’s a choice,
Getting swept away,

(…)

And I just think you should,
Think you should know,
That nothing safe is worth the drive,
And I would follow you, follow you home

(…)

This hope is treacherous,
This daydream is dangerous,
This hope is treacherous

(…)

Funny Thing

 The funny thing is that I’ve been waiting for this all day long. But I only realized how much I needed it when the first tears came to my eyes. I don’t know what for I just cried… if it was for the music, the melody, my life or for the million feelings I’m trying to understand right now.
Other funny thing is that I also need help to know all of this freaking things but, I don’t want to. I’m sure I cannot express myself in the right way and, even if I could, I wouldn’t want to. Why can’t the people, that say that know me the most, understand that I don’t want to be understood. That was a fase, and I already passed it, I don’t need it back, it’s gone now. I don’t feel like talking and if, and when, I cry in my room or in some corner, I’m crying to myself, I don’t want anyone to see. Not because I’m afraid of what they’re gonna think of me (I passed that too) but, yes, because I’m afraid of what they’re gonna ask. I don’t want more questions, that I don’t even understand, in my mind… so please don’t asked them. If I cry alone, I’m doing it for me, I’m trying alone to figure out things for myself.
I’m not cold-hearted. I just like to have my moments of silence pain, just like everybody.

New Year, hm...

Espero que neste ano algumas coisas mudem mas não muitas... o meu 2012 foi fantástico!, mas não teve tantas mudanças como eu esperava. Muitas coisas não aconteceram como eu esperava e algumas simplesmente não aconteceram, como o lançamento do meu livro e a minha tatuagem mas enfim... vou ter de esperar por 2013 e esforçar-me mais para ter o que quero.

Por agora, vou ler porque as aulas começam amanha e ainda nem li os livros que já deveriam estar lidos à dois meses, mas enfim... cumprir horários e prazos que só dependem de mim não é o meu forte : )


P.S.: LOVE new Taylor Swift's album!